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released August 8, 2014

Recorded in August 2013 and January/February 2014 by Kevin Dixon and Dante Fumo.

Mastered by Will Killingsworth at Dead Air Studios.

Adam Krause appears on Life of Mirth, Quaaludes, and Swims.

Album art by Nicholas Ballesteros.




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Track Name: Life of Mirth
you already know how to lower yourself
you know that there is a science to every story that's told
trying to find the sense in ordinary events
a chasm is formed when you open the door
try to plug all the holes it's a life of mirth
Track Name: Remember When Man
history's sold to the highest bidder in gold
impose your own vision of home
you'll take it, it's owned
where's your headache? it's owned
thrown in a hole thankful for the blur
impose your own vision of home
Track Name: RWMII
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Track Name: Space Death
i saw the angel of death in a dream within dreams where i was flying in a space craft
he said that i'm okay i should be scared he's rooting for the young man
nothing matters i'll sleep in now
nothing matter lie awake now

i'm your only son now take me with you through time
Track Name: St. Mary's Challenger
am i right by your side am i feeling alone is it hard to describe am i under the stone is it absorbed into pattern i'm still at a loss can i say something louder am i just the weather ?
don't you want it - i can't feel unknown
Track Name: Harsh Realm
nowhere you go will be as clear
nowhere you go will disappear

nothing is permanent nothing is pure
Track Name: Human Finger
a tempest burns and claims to be
a chaperone
a tempest burns
reality is not as bad as storms may see

what is it the piercing hum or silence
what is it the urge to vitalize
what is it the urge to interact
with everyone you meet but still attack

a tempest burns and blames to me
you’re on your own and words alone can’t form the mess
it’s for the best
you’re stumbling and grappling

what is it the teething self defiance
what about the cadence that you found
you speak inside a circle but your throat ran aground
I wonder why/how you cannot make a sound
Track Name: Quaaludes
you'll understand the place you're in
when you've grown tired of it
and come to live in unison with everyone else
spaces can be beautiful if they reflect yourself
your exit is unlikely if you're simply content
you'll long for youth and innocence
pretend you're on tv and spend some time with medicine
like everyone else
and everyone else is beside themselves
you're only impressed with reflections

your circle imposed
the thread that you hold so tight
its origins hollow
just look down the coast
the scenery has changed and yet inert imbued with flow
you won't forget
Track Name: Teething Finger
etched in our blood
bile verses
you can be seventh son
in rehearsal
you can be last one to
laugh at horrors
spoil the end for us
does it matter ?

if you stay with me i'm not the who will lose my head

etched in our blood
you can be right one too
still just static
this is appalling truth
does it matter
spoil the end for us
what's the matter?
Track Name: Swims
time and distance can take life from me
out of reach and so undeniably gone

can you wait for a shadow to settle here
chase the sun, fall asleep in the window

time and distance can make love to me
why do you whisper at once just imagining